Update numero uno

As I look back on the last few days, weeks, month, I feel nothing. The guy that I like is still unavailable and even though that's my excuse for why I shouldn't like him, it's really just a cover up for the truth: he will never like me. And that may seem mopey, but it is in fact very true. So I can only keep being his friend and communicating to him soley through text message. Beyond that, there is apparently a boy that does like me. And I told my crush about him. Saying that since he's the only boy that likes me it wouldn't hurt to get to know him, that maybe I WILL start to like this boy that for some reason or another likes me. And he told me I shouldn't do that to myself. Yes, he is right, I SHOULDN'T do that to myself, but what else can I do? I guess I could just stay single til college, but how can I get a guy in college? There's no down time before school, no lunch period, time to talk in class, etc.... so maybe I'll just be a cat lady lol, or a dog lady since dogs have the decency to cuddle and protect their owners.